"I am my thoughts. If they exist in her, Buffy contains everything that is me and she becomes me. I cease to exist." -Oz
Thanks for sharing this. It's a beautiful twist on identity and the meaning of self.
So Buffy is being educated about who she is by the people who know her best. They're even trying to include the parts that they're uncomfortable with in order to make her whole. But they can't know what she's thinking inside. Nobody knows what she really thinks about her relationship with Giles and her mom and her dad because she's never articulated how that broken tripartite parenting affects her. None of them have a clue that in her last calm, conscious choice before dying, she picked Spike to be Dawn's guardian instead of any of them; none of them are even capable of understanding why she did.
Buffy is filled with unarticulated and secret thoughts, feelings, and plans about the world. How much of her is the hidden nine tenths of her mental iceberg and how much can be read from the surface is something we don't know. Probably we don't know for sure about ourselves.
Anyway, I love the way you dance around the issues everyone has. Giles' quiet undercurrent of despair under the happiness is especially pretty.
I have to imagine the urge to assert control and her inability to truly relinquish it is eating Willow's soul from the inside.
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Date: 2014-07-06 05:37 pm (UTC)Thanks for sharing this. It's a beautiful twist on identity and the meaning of self.
So Buffy is being educated about who she is by the people who know her best. They're even trying to include the parts that they're uncomfortable with in order to make her whole. But they can't know what she's thinking inside. Nobody knows what she really thinks about her relationship with Giles and her mom and her dad because she's never articulated how that broken tripartite parenting affects her. None of them have a clue that in her last calm, conscious choice before dying, she picked Spike to be Dawn's guardian instead of any of them; none of them are even capable of understanding why she did.
Buffy is filled with unarticulated and secret thoughts, feelings, and plans about the world. How much of her is the hidden nine tenths of her mental iceberg and how much can be read from the surface is something we don't know. Probably we don't know for sure about ourselves.
Anyway, I love the way you dance around the issues everyone has. Giles' quiet undercurrent of despair under the happiness is especially pretty.
I have to imagine the urge to assert control and her inability to truly relinquish it is eating Willow's soul from the inside.